I have screwed up the only thing I ever cared about. I pushed the love of my life away by being to busy to show her any attention. I did something really horrible last night but I don’t remember what. There is no hope of ever getting her back now and I am sure of that. God I miss her already.
The only thoughts that are constant right now have to do with a knife, a lighter, and my wrist.
what doesn’t kill you fucks you up mentally and affects your ability to have stable relationships with other human beings
So you went from an 18 to a 14? Yes oils are fine just don’t use tea tree as it can be an irritant. Just make sure before you use anything that isn’t sterile, that there wasn’t any tearing, this would be evident by blood inside of the fistula or even on the jewelry itself, or even scabbing. These can all be signs of tearing and that is no good. It then needs to be treated like a fresh hole instead of a healed piercing. Otherwise you are good to go. I am not saying, by any means, that you shouldn’t follow your piercers advice, but if you weren’t happy with the experience, then you should find a professional who does make you happy.Edit: I would personally recommend emu oil. Thought I put that in the original post. Sorry.
Firstly, how were your ears stretched? I see nothing wrong with oil massages when the fistula(skin tunnel) is healed. As long as there wasn’t any tearing, ripping, or you didn’t have a “blowout”, then it won’t matter. If there was tearing, or even pain, that brings a lot of other questions and issues up. I am a strong advocate of slow stretching. j.c. Potts of Pangea Piercing recommends wearing single flared plugs until they fall out, then switching to double flared, then sizing up to another single flared plug, and repeat. Again, without knowing the exact method used to stretch your ears it’s hard to give a definitive answer, but to summarize, no blood, no pain, no tearing, no problem with tissue massaging using oils.